Bored
My second official day of summer, as in no thinking of school, as in no notes to review or textbooks to read, no lectures to watch, no Timmies coffee to sustain me through another 2hr, 9am lecture. "None of the above" would in this case BE the coorect answer. Being my second day to 'summer-ize', you'd think i'd actually be able to do something "summery". Sigh. Worked from 9:30-5. Long yet not so bad shift. Got to train someone else, so i didnt' do much myself. I think i spent most of my time trying to give away my saturday shift. BOOO...everyone's busy. By the end of a 8hr shift, you just feel like it's time for bed, except the rest of the world is still living in daylight. Originally, the latter part of the day was suppose to be either softball practice or sandwich run. But i ended up doing...what's that you say? yes indeedee, "None of the above" [is again the correct MC answer]. So lethargic and out of it...yet bored at the same time. If anything, after work, there was this feeling of 'omg, gotta go home and study, which exam is next' lol. It's like i'm conditioned. How? No idea- i didn't even work that hard to begin with.
Back to my story. I started reading "Cross & Cressant" (I think that's how you spell it). It's about Islam and how we can be a witness to Muslims. I got it at Urbana back in december 03. And needless to say, i've only slimmed through 2 of the i think 9 books i got there. So sad. But this book is actually pretty good. Very considerate that we're not ignortant towards any part of the culture and that our "witnessnessing" is not an act of pride but truely out of love. He also brought up the point that Christians are not the only knows who may know God. Jesus said, "I am the Way", he meant he's the Only way to the Father. That means if someone doesn't accept Jesus, they cannot know God as father, cannot enjoy his blessings, and cannot recognize that Jesus is the Son- all of which is true if you look into Islam. God being a father is unperceiveable. He gave the example of when God spoke to Abimelech in a dream. Before that, Abraham didn't think anyone outside his family can have a relationship with God but he realized that ppl outside the covenant can still communicate with God. When i read, i think i got a taste of what Abraham felt. It was ignorant of me to think that Muslims are completely out of the loop when it comes to God. I'm enjoying this book. Hopefully this will better prepare me to become a smarter & more informed witness at UTSC in *sniff* <2 WEEKS!!!! ahh!!!! Or a witness at all to my Muslim classmates. I find myself reluctant to take an initiative. I get scared. I'm not sure why, maybe it's because it's intimidating- they're so disciplined and so faithful to their creed. Christians can learn alot from them when it comes to disciplining oneself. I guess i'm trying to say that i really admire that about them.
The last matter on a. Mandar's heart is about this saturday. BOOO. I have to work. BOOO!!!! It's my softball team's first playoff game and i can't make it. My parents are also going to ottawa to visit a family friend, their daughter was my bestfriend when we were young and i haven't seen her in..5yrs!!! And i can't go. BOOO. But on a lighter note. By not going away for the weekend, i will be able to attenn an annual shopping spree w/ some of my gals form high school. Looking forward to that. Quite. he hee. Not only the shopping part but just to catch up. I've only seen them maybe 1-2 times this summer.
All this free time helped me realize that i need to have things to do. We all do. We're not meant to simply be ppl who sit around with no purpose in mind; with no goal. We need to be driven and constantly be on a road to attain that goal. Although we have that long term goal ahead, we also need short term ones to keep us on our feet. Summer does not equal retirement. It just equals no school. Which leads me to my next point. Goal for the next <2 weeks (and i hope you guys, whoever will help me be faithful to this)
1. Finish reading the Cross & Cressant and perhaps ANOTHER BOOK *gasp* ambitious, i know he hee.
2. Prepare myself spiritually for the next semester
3. I want to say to actively share my faith to others. But i'm not sure how to go about doing so because i think school is the best mission field right now.
4. Similar to what i said before. To re-evaluate. Many things.
Back to my story. I started reading "Cross & Cressant" (I think that's how you spell it). It's about Islam and how we can be a witness to Muslims. I got it at Urbana back in december 03. And needless to say, i've only slimmed through 2 of the i think 9 books i got there. So sad. But this book is actually pretty good. Very considerate that we're not ignortant towards any part of the culture and that our "witnessnessing" is not an act of pride but truely out of love. He also brought up the point that Christians are not the only knows who may know God. Jesus said, "I am the Way", he meant he's the Only way to the Father. That means if someone doesn't accept Jesus, they cannot know God as father, cannot enjoy his blessings, and cannot recognize that Jesus is the Son- all of which is true if you look into Islam. God being a father is unperceiveable. He gave the example of when God spoke to Abimelech in a dream. Before that, Abraham didn't think anyone outside his family can have a relationship with God but he realized that ppl outside the covenant can still communicate with God. When i read, i think i got a taste of what Abraham felt. It was ignorant of me to think that Muslims are completely out of the loop when it comes to God. I'm enjoying this book. Hopefully this will better prepare me to become a smarter & more informed witness at UTSC in *sniff* <2 WEEKS!!!! ahh!!!! Or a witness at all to my Muslim classmates. I find myself reluctant to take an initiative. I get scared. I'm not sure why, maybe it's because it's intimidating- they're so disciplined and so faithful to their creed. Christians can learn alot from them when it comes to disciplining oneself. I guess i'm trying to say that i really admire that about them.
The last matter on a. Mandar's heart is about this saturday. BOOO. I have to work. BOOO!!!! It's my softball team's first playoff game and i can't make it. My parents are also going to ottawa to visit a family friend, their daughter was my bestfriend when we were young and i haven't seen her in..5yrs!!! And i can't go. BOOO. But on a lighter note. By not going away for the weekend, i will be able to attenn an annual shopping spree w/ some of my gals form high school. Looking forward to that. Quite. he hee. Not only the shopping part but just to catch up. I've only seen them maybe 1-2 times this summer.
All this free time helped me realize that i need to have things to do. We all do. We're not meant to simply be ppl who sit around with no purpose in mind; with no goal. We need to be driven and constantly be on a road to attain that goal. Although we have that long term goal ahead, we also need short term ones to keep us on our feet. Summer does not equal retirement. It just equals no school. Which leads me to my next point. Goal for the next <2 weeks (and i hope you guys, whoever will help me be faithful to this)
1. Finish reading the Cross & Cressant and perhaps ANOTHER BOOK *gasp* ambitious, i know he hee.
2. Prepare myself spiritually for the next semester
3. I want to say to actively share my faith to others. But i'm not sure how to go about doing so because i think school is the best mission field right now.
4. Similar to what i said before. To re-evaluate. Many things.
posted by A Mandar @ 11:33 p.m.
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