I'm into the third hour of my 7hr break. Sigh. If only my pants weren't so tight. If only these jeans were "stretch". I love stretch jeans. It conforms to your body and doens't make you feel super fat even if you had 3 bowls of ice cream the night before.

My internet at home is still not up and running however i am about 97% completed with the painting of my room- maybe 3 more clouds. There is still no real furniture in the house, that will come on thursday. But we have cable now AND a working phone..horray! I am slowly emerging back into the connected global village.

Schools has been..well school. Especially now that my stallion is no longer here- I MISS YOU!
I'm thoroughly enjoying my non-science related courses. Well, only half of them are. As much as i love learning about neurological disorders and organizations, english and religion has opened up a whole new avenue of academics.

I'm trying my best to attend vcf regularly. It's not easy. Not because i'm tight on time. It's more of the fact that i have to actively put myself out of my comfort zone and get to know people. Diversity scares me but the insecurities that come w/ not knowing anyone scares me even more. I'm quiet enough as it is when i'm w/ ppl that i know, that i become completely mute when i'm with strangers. It's really tempting to just go to ccf or even the asian fellowship one where i know that i will meet cbc's that come from some kind of variation of chinese churches. Despite all that goodness, i don't want to settle for comfort. I want to step away from chinese culture or CBC culture and let it be about christian culture. But sometimes i think maybe i'm TOO fixated on not going to those chinese fellowships that that in itself is not good either. I don't know. I'm going to the vcf retreat this weekend so hopefully that will be a good chance for fellowship.

I really enjoyed sunday shool. Mainly because it's women only! he hee. The class is called "Women of Worth" and on sunday we talked about our different personalities, our strengths and weaknesses and even in our weaknesses, God can use that. I was too timid to share but i think one of my weaknesses is that i'm not much of a 'centre of the party' person. I much prefer to spend time with one or two people and have genuine conversation than to be with a group of people. It's difficult to explain myself. My expression of "sadness" is there because i don't feel like i need to entertain those i am with. And likewise, i don't want them to feel that they need to entertain me. Introverted, that's definitly me. No matter how much i push myself to be extroverted, i need that quiet solitude to 'recharge'.

My pants are feeling better. I just hope the button doesn't pop.