Countdown

Ah. After a very long yet quick summer, it all comes down to the last two weeks.

What's in store:
- annual "retreat" with my peoples peeps. Very excited!
- CNE
- Chinese Lantern Festival
- getting together with Warren? ha haa..we'll see. After a year of 'tentative scheduling'
- school =) Yes, i'm looking forward to a new semester, with new classes, SPINNING and running again
- after 6 VERY long months, my mom is finally coming back from china. Ah i miss her so much.
- last shift at Bloorview
- planning for the Christmas Celebration. Yes, that's right. I've already started. And watch out, if I haven't asked you already, I will =)
- serving Oasis again. For the past year, going to friday programs has truely been an "oasis" for me. I was able to go from a crazy week of school and expect to enjoy fellowship and worship God. But i'm really excited to be serving again. I miss it. And i know that He is doing something really special with this group of people. I just hope that I will continue to feel this way once november comes.


I was told yesterday that I am no where close to finishing my experiments. Apparently there are a whole bunch of stuff that he still wants me to do before i can start writing. I guess my plan of finishing all the experiments by the end of summer will not happen until november. Just thinking about it releases a burst of cortisol- AH! I'm really not use to this whole independent research idea- probably because I lack self control. And the freedom is paralyzing.
I need classes! I need milestones! I need exams!

Adrenaline

Perhaps it's my 'competitive' side or it might be because it's soon to be the beginning of summer for me. I'm really pumped for my exam tomorrow (second last). I always get really nervous before an exam, no matter how much i've prepared. But it's a good nervous. I love the feeling of studying really hard for something and then acing it. It's almost like a fight, a mental battle, like a long jog on a sunny day. Where at the end of it all, it just feels good to have sweat it off.

I realized this summer that I am a very goal oriented person. I love to see the finish product (given that it's good) and at times i would go to all costs to reach that goal (i'm thinking in terms of school here). But perhaps i need to remember that most of the time, it's about the journey. It's about how i got there; about the way i respond; about Who i rely on. It's about the process because that's the part that makes you stronger.

I really miss interacting with living people. I miss the cute boy at bloorview that picks his wedgie everytime he uses his walker. I miss how he hides his face behind his hands in the first 5min. heh so cute. I miss having coffee with people. I miss human interaction. The crickets and flies are just not cutting it anymore- although the population has been crashing rapidly.
Ah. One more week and i'm going to start making some phone calls. And you better answer!

Anatomy bell ringer, get ready to be owned!

Blessings from this weekend.

The English speaking congregation had our annual retreat. And we (the committee) have been planning since May.

I went in with a pretty pessimistic attitude. Physically, i was popped and felt very 'gross'. And sleeping on the floor does NOT help.

But I've blessed in numerous ways this pass weekend. I'm too tired to type out my two long stories, so if you're genuinely interested, you'd ask me in person (hehe..*tap nose*)...but it goes along the lines of...
- discouragement
- China
- serving

And the addition of a new sister! It made everything worth it.

Looking forward to serving next year.

A.

Tired.

Time to study. *crawling into the hole*