Homesick

I spent a good amt of time last time crying to my mom about my frustration. It seems so silly and immature but simultaneously it still resides. This experience has taught me how much i value my parents. I'm so thankful to have a tight relationship with them. I can tell my mom anything and i can laugh with (or at) my dad about anything. I feel homesick. 22 more days.

I know they have good intentions but generation clash is inevitable when you're together almost 24/7. As a result of this, i'm taking every opportunity to get out of the house. I can't wait til Kingston..thanks for taking me in =)

I got my religion paper mark. Ha haa. So much for an evangelistic paper..the proclaimation of faith does not go well with the academics. Oh well. Take it as a learning experience.

Frustrated.

Weekend ended off on a good note ..but the jap buffet and roots sweater was quite the highlight =)

Finally finished Meteor Garden II- you can't beat taiwanese dramas.

I REALLY missed my parents these couple of days. I'm not sure how much of my grandparents i can take. They have good intentions...but AHHHH. I want to stab myself sometimes...esp when it's 5am and my grandpa is calling China...ON THE SPEAKER PHONE...meanwhile, he's still yelling. Sigh.
My parents were thinking about coming back early...but that means at least $240 difference on their flight- they decided against it =( Another month left.

I shared about my China trip with the Mandarin Congregation. I started off explaining why I had a burden for china. I got teary..and did that thing where your lips shake and you can't speak. After taking a few minutes to get myself together, i continued through the rest of the ppt in my bad mandarin. I ended up staying for the entire service- it was such a blessing. The congregation grew immensely since the last time i was there- probably around 2yrs ago. Praise Him! and i was able to chat w/ some ppl after. One person offered to hook me up with a teaching job if i ever wanted to go back. I was really by the passion and sincerity. I really wish my mandarin was better..and i was literate.

I'm REALLY putting off this english essay. Sigh. My last assignment before finals.

And as for that something something.. it's a no go.

UPdate

Just overall, very content.

I submitted my first university level essay today for religion. I'm very nervous and kind of excited. I wrote about why missions exist in Christianty and used the Bible as my primary source. My conclusion was two things..love and obedience. Thanks to all those who played devils advocate.

As i was going through my bible, trying to find verses and i was surprised by the number of scripture that eluded to those two things- it reinforced how important evangelism is.

One of my fav is Rom 10:14-15. "How, then, can they call on the on ethey have not believed in? And how can they believe in the one of whom they have not heard? And how can they hear w/o someone preaching to them? And how can they preach unless they are sent?" For "the harvest is plentiful and the laborers are few" Matt 9:37.

"Evangelism is not the fine print at the end of an agreement- it is the telling of a love story. Moreover, missionary work is not based on unfathomable theology that is only reserved for scholars and righteous men. The rationality resides in love and obedience. "

But i think somehow i have become desensitized in the sense i'm not going "whoa"..but perhaps i'm just moving away from emotions and more onto knowing what i need to do. I dunno, i need new eyes when reading God's word. I hope that somehow, God will go with that essay...and be with whichever TA that is grading it. Not so much for a good grade (although that would be nice) but more so understanding.

Now that the storm is over, i went back to the cardio room. Good times- esp when i'm on the elliptical and Oprah is on =)

I'm addicted to interhouse vball!..so much fun. I love vball. It's such a good way to not think about school..or assignments or whatever. Ah.. i'm still so pumped from tonite..he he. We had such an awesome team, there were 4 of us asians..and we played against 6 um..white ppl..and we rocked them!..they set me up a few times and i even got a hit..he hee...but i still prefer being setter. I'm playing for vcf (varsity christian fellowship)...and today i think we allowed ourselves to exemplify what the team name stood for through our spirit and encouraging words to each other. After the game, a guy from the other team commented that this has been the funnest game he's played all season =)

In light of what i've been "thinking"..i wanted to post up the Risk poem..but too lazy. You can find it on Adrian's blog (I'm advertising for you!)...It's such a challenge when the situation applies to yourself.

I miss my parents. 1.5 months left. - my mom bought me a coconut bra..so excited ha haa.