I'm into the third hour of my 7hr break. Sigh. If only my pants weren't so tight. If only these jeans were "stretch". I love stretch jeans. It conforms to your body and doens't make you feel super fat even if you had 3 bowls of ice cream the night before.

My internet at home is still not up and running however i am about 97% completed with the painting of my room- maybe 3 more clouds. There is still no real furniture in the house, that will come on thursday. But we have cable now AND a working phone..horray! I am slowly emerging back into the connected global village.

Schools has been..well school. Especially now that my stallion is no longer here- I MISS YOU!
I'm thoroughly enjoying my non-science related courses. Well, only half of them are. As much as i love learning about neurological disorders and organizations, english and religion has opened up a whole new avenue of academics.

I'm trying my best to attend vcf regularly. It's not easy. Not because i'm tight on time. It's more of the fact that i have to actively put myself out of my comfort zone and get to know people. Diversity scares me but the insecurities that come w/ not knowing anyone scares me even more. I'm quiet enough as it is when i'm w/ ppl that i know, that i become completely mute when i'm with strangers. It's really tempting to just go to ccf or even the asian fellowship one where i know that i will meet cbc's that come from some kind of variation of chinese churches. Despite all that goodness, i don't want to settle for comfort. I want to step away from chinese culture or CBC culture and let it be about christian culture. But sometimes i think maybe i'm TOO fixated on not going to those chinese fellowships that that in itself is not good either. I don't know. I'm going to the vcf retreat this weekend so hopefully that will be a good chance for fellowship.

I really enjoyed sunday shool. Mainly because it's women only! he hee. The class is called "Women of Worth" and on sunday we talked about our different personalities, our strengths and weaknesses and even in our weaknesses, God can use that. I was too timid to share but i think one of my weaknesses is that i'm not much of a 'centre of the party' person. I much prefer to spend time with one or two people and have genuine conversation than to be with a group of people. It's difficult to explain myself. My expression of "sadness" is there because i don't feel like i need to entertain those i am with. And likewise, i don't want them to feel that they need to entertain me. Introverted, that's definitly me. No matter how much i push myself to be extroverted, i need that quiet solitude to 'recharge'.

My pants are feeling better. I just hope the button doesn't pop.

Does anyone know of any issues/topics concerning toxicology? -anything!?!?!?! esp something that i can impress my TA & class with.
Drop a line! PLEASE...lol amanda's desparate

Change

No house phone, no cable, no internet.

We're slowly settling into the new place. I didn't sleep well the first night and it wasn't b/c i was sleeping on 4 mattresses piled on top of each other. I kept thinking that some colored man was going to bust down our door or climb thru the window and shoot us. But the stereotype of slowly disappearing.

It's clubs week at school and i was harassed by two different chinese clubs on campus to join. One was a mainland club, i ended up conversing w/ the guy in mandarin. And the other was hk fob club. I was quite happy about that..he hee. On both occasions, i was wearing clothes that i bought in China. I think i now know the secret of picking up chinese men...no more american eagle for me!

I had 9am class yesterday and i didn't get out of bed until 8am...and got out of the house around 8:20...AND i bussed to school. Ah..the convenience. If it wasn't for one of the 38 being so slow, i could've been there even earlier.

About school.
I'm enjoying my carefree semester so far. Not only am i NOT taking a full course load but three of them are electives. God bless electives! I'm taking an English course w/ Narito (I know you're reading this!)- The Bible and Literature. And i'm taking a religion course. And an env'tal sci ..."Water".. it sounds stupid but it's really informative. It reminds me of ecology, minus the hot prof. Speaking of whom, i am taking a toxicology course w/....he's alot less mesmerizing this year. Probably b/c he uses the same stories and yea...that's very impressive when you reuse your material. However i am still nontheless super alert during his lectures. Let's hope i do well in that course cuz it's the only one i really need towards my degree.

Besides all that, i really hope to get more involved at school this year. Vcf, chinese club and maybe v-ball..We'll see what happens.

I miss dt though...and having a store right underneath you. Oh well...I can still reminence the golden days when i come down every sunday.

Nostalgic. Everyone is leaving for school.
Disappointed. Feeling like I don't belong.

In honor of DoeDoe

I think my kitty is dying. A wave of sadness washes over me. I see the liquid memories stream down her ever shining eyes. Her frail and slim torso sits lifelessly on the chair. Only sorrow still exists she stares. The food pellets has not be touched for weeks and the bowl of milk sits motionless, not a drop is missing. I'm actually really sad..more so than i'd ever expect. I've had her for a good 7yrs. I loved harassing her when she was younger...chasing her around the house...testing to see if cats can REALLY land on their feet under all circumstances..and then get surprised by her as she jumped out of a corner. She's so smart and so pretty.

Pout + Tear